The Fire Within...

Now cypher...

Introspecting,pondering,drowning in the obesity of my thought process.You see, I consider myself to be a thoughtful person,thinking about every little detail that I experience as a human being.

And I'm always dwelling on my deepest of emotions.I'll try to be concise and coherent so, once again, bear with me.

I consider myself to be an existentialist but not like those that you read about,I live for the moment and I'm not attached to any form of religion.I don't think of suicide everytime something bad happens and I sure as hell am not one-dimensional.My way is also that of spirituality, which means that every experience, whether, positive or negative, perfects you as a human being.

And so, with this I tell you...My life right now is a conundrum, a rubix cube.Twenty seven years on this earth and I'm astray in the wilderness.I believe my girlfriend said it best, I'm on the verge of an "existential catharsis".Questioning my own purpose on this planet of the deprived.Dark clouds are hovering over my head and I'm still waiting for my third eye to "wake up" so that I could take over and consistency rules my life.But that hasn't been the case, and if my eyes couldn't touch the beaty that I behold I would probably be running amok.Bitter and full of resentment.My soul decaying at best.

But no longer....

I will destroy and rebuild with the little that I have because the fascination of the infinite consumes me.It's time for me to elevate beyond comprehension.No longer will I poison my brain with vague ideas and the like.No longer will I succumb to apathy.Stupidity can be infectious but I hold the cure.

It's time to feed oxygen to my fire within.

Peace.

As I close My Eyes and Drift Away...

Bear with me...

Words may not convey what I will try to express.I am no writer, I am no poet, I am just a mere confused man.I am certain about one thing,though.

I am writing this concerning the person that I'm sharing my "life" with.

What is this that I feel?As I close my eyes and drift away, I feel that I am one with the universe and if I am one with the universe, then, I am one with YOU.If the cosmos had a main celestial body, you would be that star.I am only particles, a black hole sucking my own self to the unknown.But then again, I realize that even black holes have a purpose and you help me remember this.What is this that I feel?A feeling so ethereal that it plucks every inch of my heart strings.No, I think it's my heart trying to explode because this "force" gravitates towards my chest making me breathless and faint.

I try to find an explanation to all of this, so I seek beyond my eye sockets.In the depths of my cerebral cortex, but I find nothing.This feeling is overwhelming, I feel like on one of those christian doctrines, heaven.Pure and carefree.Enough of this, I won't delve anymore but it just hit me...

I'll oversimplify and say this is just "love".But, it isn't.This is just more than that.Love is just a cliché concept for people that are just infatuated.I simply do not know what this is.All I know is that she has complimented my life in such a way that I simply have no words to describe it.From the way she treats me,to her beautiful smile.From the way she expresses, to her beautiful skin.But beyond all that cursory, her brain is what matters the most.So much intelligent prowess...

If anything, I don't want this feeling to go away.As a matter of fact,I don't think it will ever go away because change is the only constant and that constant is YOU.

Thank You for changing my life.

Peace

Hip Hop Ain't Dead....I got that Bitch On Life Support!

The year...1992 a group called Wu-Tang Clan turned my life upside down.

By that time I was a skinny, confused but thoughtful kid.An outcast in the eyes of society but yet on a verge of shaping my personality.

The song..."Da Mystery of Chessboxin'" and everything was ok until...

Masta Killa's verse.Ironic because,incarcerated by that time, he only appeared on two cuts.That verse alone gave so much confidence and at the same time Hip Hop was starting to grow on me but...as a fad.For years later,a little know group called The Roots dropped the now classic "Illadelph Halflife" and then it happened.I fell in love with Hip Hop.Yeah, cliché,I know, but I tied the knot listening to that album.I was on some Bonnie and Clyde shit, the world was ours.A while back I was listening to Tribe, Gravediggaz,Flatliners and such but no album made that much of an impact than "Illadelph Halflife".

"Better believe it, cause it is coming...You wont believe the sights you see before your eyes"

As if the Jazzyfatnastees had an epiphany of some sort because,after Rawkus and this brilliant album, everything went downhill.

The jiggy era began...

Puffy was making money out of Biggie's death,Nas was selling out,Will Smith was considered a dope emcee( he used to be)and Reggaeton was starting to flourish.With that being said,Hip Hop was no longer what it was,music to put my soul at ease.It got worse...

Sex, guns, and women were glorified to the point that if you didn't talk about those things you weren't Hip Hop.Misogyny was her middle name and our relationship grew bitter.Mediocre "artists" where also found in the underground movement, Kanye West and Jay-Z were dope but fell short from saving this crack whore named Hip Hop.Nas redeemed himself but the young ones didn't recognize him as an artist and he had already alienated some of his fans.

On the brink of insanity...

Where do I look?Even more deeper.I started delving into other types of music( I've always been diverse but the lack of originality in Hip Hop made me sick)Radiohead,Bebel Gilberto and Mars Volta were the order of the day.Atmosphere and Blueprint where also on my iPod but my faith in Hip Hop was completely drained until...

"Ink Is My Drink"...

Panacea, The Rebirth of Rawkus.

A plethora of albums that dropped in the last two years had me salivating, especially EL-P's "I'll Sleep When You're Dead but, what the fuck happened that this album went under my radar?Nevertheless,it was there, as if it was waiting for me to listen to it like a planet waiting to be discovered.Hip Hop is back in my life, K-Murdock has painted sound visuals so soulful that everytime I listen to this album I drift away through the universe.This is what Hip Hop should sound like.

Nas, eat your words.Introspection is her middle name now.

Peace

Substantial

Once again...

I'm trying to dedicate time in creating this blog but between work, my girl, such and such it has been rather difficult. Nevertheless, I came across this album...



Substantial is an emcee from Maryland now residing in New York and also part of the QN5 roster(CunnynLinguists,Tonedeff,etc.).With a staccato flow and heavy lyricism, Substantial can hold his own on the mic but what caught my attention was the production on this album handled by Nujabes from Japan.This is a rare gem, released in Japan only, so do yourself a favor and download this dope album.

Substantial "To This Union A Sun Was Born"

Peace

It's On...

So a friend of mine encouraged me to create a blog and here I am...

I'm hoping this can be a thrilling ride for you and me even though I still don't know whether I should write in english or spanish.I'm also knew to this so don't expect flashy stuff but I will tell you this...Everybody will know what's inside my "beautiful" mind.

Ha!Beautiful, but you'll see what I mean.

Peace